Basketball, failed attempts and more thoughts of Ballet Barre

Okay Okay, I know exactly what I was thinking. I thought that if I could just get back on track, getting in shape would just happen and Poof!!! Magically I would transform. LOL

Nope! Not even close. One Spartan workout done and that was that. I wanted to drive to San Diego at 5:30 AM on a Saturday with my 3 kiddos in tow and rock out another race workout and everything would just fall into place. So I stayed up late. Too late.

On purpose?

Maybe. I was trying to sabotage myself. I knew if I went to sleep early that would mean that I would have to wake up early and get myself and my three kids to the workout on time in SD. So I did the opposite. I stayed up waaaaaaaayyyyy too late.

And... it worked. I was too tired... Then I tried to blame my boys for not waking up. I woke up at 5:30 AM and then tried to wake them up, which I knew was going to take some effort but I gave up...and then I turned around at the first sign of difficulty and went back to bed.

I know and can honestly say I wanted to lose today...

SHAKE it off! Right??

I don't want to fail. I don't want to fail. I DON't WANT TO FAIL.

I actually mean that. I don't want to!

I want to succeed.

Okay, so what am I going to do about it? I am going to push on to another day and succeed. I signed up for a women's basketball league for Sundays. Will it be easy? UH.... Nope! Can I do it? Will I just try to sabotage myself this time? NO I WILL NOT.

BALLET BARRE? Yes. I want to break it out and I need to work harder to get back on track. Or back to the Barre. Onto another day, a basketball day. A ballet barre day? Some day really soon. I know it!

Signed, A Ballet Rookie xo